haish.. i feel very sad, upset, disappointed and last but nt least.. i feel that i'm really losing hope.. haish... even if it started as a hunch at the start.. i know that it would end this way.. i was too stupid too believe that there was even hope at the start.. i really really feel betrayed? devastated.. definitly... but one thing.. why is everything that is bad happens at the same time.. one prob that has always been shadowing me all a long has not even left and yet others come.. why does it always hits me emitionally.. not mentally nor physically.. how long am i suppose to bear with this pain in my heart... haish...
fr my childhood nightmare.. i hope this prob can be overcome if i try to sit down and talk heart to heart.. i just hpe that it will not continue in the long run....
for me, being unstable to my surrounding... i just hope that it will end soon.. i tried the best i can. i guess it aint me who is the prob... well... it's already made me suffer alot.. i just hope all this will end soon and it won't affect any part of my concentration..
to a certain you out there... i guess this is wher i will have to treat you differently already.. cause if this is the way we treat each other.. my feelings will never change no matter how much i try to forget you.. right now.. i'm just too hurt and disappointed with what has, had an i tink will happen.. i would want to take my leave.. seriously.. i know this is not the best time to think of this.. but if u r the cause of the teardrps and you are the only one i think about all night.. i'd suggest that i forget you as a whole.. be it being my friend or what ever.. i just can't bear to be hurt for the 3rd time and i hope this time she will give you all the love babe.. i don't know how long time will take to heal the scars deep it in me....
N for the record..im not emo-ing... im just... disappointed in some decisions made in life.. what to do? its not as if i can turn back time.. hell ya i would if i could!
ps: you have disappointed me at last.. the choice is yours to make.... i just hope things work out.. bye.. love you loads..
