haish.. maybe some of my friends know that i don't get enough attention from my family. especially my parents. haish.. it's just so sad to know that they don't really bother.. hmm.. i'm sick yet they ask me to take things myslef when they know that i fell down searching for the thermometer. heck.. i could not even walk properly. okay fine. taking things myself is one thing. asking me to SEACRH for something so small and they don't even know where the thing is is another MAJOR thing. not trying to be spoilt or whatever. but hello?i'm in pain.. i know you just got home and u are tired. what about me? when others are sick. i have to take the things for them. i have to take the pills and so on for u. when i'm sick. DO YOU EVEN BOTHER?!. i don't think so! i'm really hurt. i don't have anyone to turn to when i'm down. and now you are making as i'm nothing to you guys. thanks alot! my legs are in pain! my head is feeling very heavy. i have the feeling of vomitting. do you even bother? no use sheding the tears since it means nothing to you. my heart is in pain emotionally. i'm really disturbed by some news. i getting quiet by the day. do you guys even notice? haish.. i feel like bursting. but somehow. everything is just bottled up inside. i love my life. but somehow i hate it at times. however, like i say everytime to him.. i WONT QUESTION MY FATE.

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