deedeeBOO.

WE'LL CARRY ON: Friday, December 29, 2006

like i saed... im hurt..pissed n i WAS stupid.. y didnt i noe hw to choose... gosh.. didnt noe the grp of ppl wud hurt me tt much... well... haiz...i dono y i m feelin like tis... i knew it was bound to happen niwae.. y did i hav to look at their blog n frenster... seeing those oradi hurt me so much... i new i didnt belong the moment i stepped in side... hais...jz readin n cing those make my heart break.. i nvr wanted to b seperated frm my other frens.. haish... wad cn i do wen nw we r in diff skul.. those i hav nw is oni a handful.. n these r the oni1 i cn count on.. haish... i'd nvr new life wud b so difficult...

haish....hmmm....im sooo hurt... i shud hav nt go ther... so stupid la...haish....
pissed man... jz hope tt sum1 cn cool me down... hahax... cz i myself cnt cool dwn..

argh.. gotta go slp nw.. damn la mum wana

thoughyou'reDEADandGONEdefeated
8:30:00 AM

WE'LL CARRY ON: Thursday, December 28, 2006

well..hmmm..dont blame me for the mistakes in spellin cz its white n im too lazy to change the colour wen im writin... so..hahax.. lol.. bear wit it lol... hmmm.. at tis time im nt slpin cz im bored.. hehex.. hmm..

eventhoo i had alot of god bros.. none of them hav ever mention to me tt they luv me.. even as their god sis.. bt todae.. sum1 reali touched my heart.... lol... as his god sis.. im rteali touched.. hahax.. well.. u wud b if u were in my shoes.. oni nw.. hahax.. lol.. nw diff story oradi.. nt bout jz nw uh..

ok.. hmm.. i feel guilty..hahax.. i dun wana side aniof them.. bt i feel like i hav to.. im currently bein a two-faced freak.. i hate bein tt.. fcuk..hahax... lol.. ihope i cn find a wae out ..hahax.. hmm

niwae.. kak syaz... i miz u... b hm frm brunie sOoONNN...hehehehehx..

thoughyou'reDEADandGONEdefeated
10:52:00 AM

WE'LL CARRY ON: Thursday, December 21, 2006

schools r gona open soon.... feel so lazy sia..haha.. pathetic.. i've alraedy gone to skol niwae...hahax... fer cca's....lol....n todae had test..haahx.. we were so scared sia.. i was DAMN nervous.... seriously... i didnt noe wad to do wen i step in the music room wen it was my turn to b tested...i drop my file n papers came out... then i got myself together n stood up n tried to appear as if i was confident..hahax... played pedal notes... kinda ok... a few part cudnt hold the note long enuf siot.....so afta that i was ask to play S.B.T..... band ppl shud noe.. number 68!!! tt was like damn hard seyy.... cudnt picth two of the high notes... shuts.. i rali feel that i m gona fail seyy.... then afta that mr tong ask to play to the summit..our choice piece... sum part oni uh.... played that song... i played a few boo boo.... rong pitch.... feel like startin all over again.... but.. so b it la.. wats done is done nana..hehex....haiz... i msg ppl b4 i go in ryte..hahx.. wad i msg them.... most of them was frighten cz i sae la.. help all that...save us...hehe...like tk de keje ryte.... nk hilang kn nervous nyer psl.... then go msg tis guy hus playin is good uh.... then sae test ez.. make me more nervous sia..hehex...but lucky he bz..hehx... kacau org je aku ni..hahax.. then i bug hym alot siot....hahax..hope he nt angry....bt the wae he msg kinda...hehex... u noe it wen ppl sae swtly bt is actually angry....hahax..lol... cleared that niwae... nw fine...heheeheheh...argh!! nan goin crazy cz of tasha!!!! hehex...kk .... bb... gtg... go blog at trumpt blog...lol...hehex...

nana...(dee)....alalalalala

thoughyou'reDEADandGONEdefeated
9:07:00 AM

WE'LL CARRY ON: Monday, December 11, 2006

haiz.... hMm... i feel that apart of me is gone... i dono why.... haiz... sumwat its far awae or it has fallen out of my life....i seriously dun hav a clue y.. hmMm.. bt if it was kak ika hu is feeling this wae... i noe y uh....its bcuz of the above pic... the person in the middle... haish.... the pic..

-[nalo+tambeng+yokiez=the trioz]-....

i mish hym toO.. My best bro... haish... ouh well.... i'll juz hav to wait nw niwae.... hmm...

bt ryte nw.. i reali noe its nt about hym.... bt i dono hu or y.. im damn confused..haish..... im reali reali reali..uh... i dono hw to describe my feelings..heheehehehx..lolz...

uh..well....hiaz

gotta go gosok aju le fer tml... got band!!! yeah!!!!! wuuhoooo!!!!!

hahahaahx..

buzZInG Of mY TrUmPy...

dEe ANnA!! hEHex

thoughyou'reDEADandGONEdefeated
10:08:00 AM

WE'LL CARRY ON: Saturday, December 9, 2006

hmm...wokiez... havnt been updating fer quite sumtime...been bz wit band.... n had bbq yesterdae!!! trumpet bbq uh.... i was the oni jr there!!! hehex..lolx.. bt was fun cz i meet seniors that i've nvr met b4....hehex... fun fun fun.... niwae..tell all bout it tml..gota slp..gt to wake up early tml.. all post nw short2 sia...hehex

thoughyou'reDEADandGONEdefeated
10:13:00 AM

WE'LL CARRY ON: Monday, December 4, 2006

todae..hmm... didnt do much... but wat i noe tml gt band... natasha told me... conferm the timing wit her n rina.. then.......hmmm... go tml wit rina.. todae.hmm... sis bake cookies n i jz ate them.. hard actually.. niwae.. gtg.. iron clothes for tml n gtta slp early!!!! kk..

buZzIN oF.. sLpIn WIT My tRuMpY...

-dEe....

thoughyou'reDEADandGONEdefeated
8:04:00 AM

WE'LL CARRY ON: Friday, December 1, 2006

haiz....cnt slp yet.. cz my sis nt bac..then sumore nt sleepy..ahahax.. well... hmmm... i've just been reading sum of my uh.. classmates blog n looking at their frenster... thinking bac... tis is wat i've been feeling...i feel that im nt part of the class... well... last yr.. they started their miarinis... it was cool.. cz seeing four of them together alwaes makes them look like real sisters... then atfer that more ppl started group themselves.. well... i felt that i was being pushed aside... but i juz kept feeling that i was the one hu over reacted...haiz.. but wat happen the next yr prove me that i was totaly rong....it was reali happening... i noe then i was REALLY being pushed aside.... cuz.. then they kinda hav anader grp... but multi racial n sex.....well... at least it proves that ppl in spore are living in hormony... every trip.. or ani activities that was held.. i noe i wud b the odd one out... but i tried to jz blend in... but it was reali hard.... i kept asking my self.. wat hav i done to deserve nt to hav real frens.... those hu r there wen i reali nid them.... wen i need sum1 to turn to...wen i nid a shoulder to cry on... i use to hav them.. in pri skul... but nw.. all of us r seperated.... they found new frens... i tried to find mine... but i cudnt... i hav nw.. my frens hu r older.. but most of them live so far awae.... sometimes... i feel so alone... haiz....im like totaly isolated frm the rest... pls...uh....atleast then, i HAD my band frens.. my section... but nw... the bond is nt there... they were my 2nd family... but i dono wats happen nw... dun feel like going skul....
last tym... wen i feel like this... i wud hav a "godbrother" to turn to.... he was like my own brother.. i treasured hym... but.. since my sis get to noe hym.. n made frens.. it totally change.. nw.. he nvr tok to me... i dun even dare to tok to hym nimore cuz he wud b veri sarcastic as if he does nt noe me... i reali miss those tymes.. where he wud kol me at nite n he wud tell me hw his dae was... he was like my own bro... but. everting change!haisz..... i reali dont noe wat happen...

but atleast i nw hav two other... especially.. kak ika n abg.... im reali gona miss u abg wen u r gone later... it wud nvr b the same w/o u....

but.. they nid to hav their own tyme together... y shud i bother?uh!! shit man... y does all tis bother me so much??!! y do tears hav to roll down my cheeks jz bcuz of tis matter!! argh!!!

jz let it b....
i hav to accept it...

im alone here.................

thoughyou'reDEADandGONEdefeated
9:33:00 AM